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[Oct. 12th, 2004|09:09 pm] |
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Seems like i dont update unless im upset about sumthin doesnt it??? well geuss what............IM NOT!!!!! in fact im happier now then ive ever been...like my title says...im in love for the last time...ill leave it at that...ive never felt so complete in all my life...i just wish she could be with me everyday for the rest of my life...and even though that will eventually happen...i want it now...my bed just feels more and more empty...and i hate my empty bed...sleeping just isnt as comforting when its not with you:(...enough whining lol...school keeps sucking really bad...im not looking forward to report cards...i htink my band grade will be the worst...i never passed off all my music...but i know it...i just dont feel like playin it for him...its just do intimidating...oh well...afer friday it wont matter...marching is almost over...and as much as id like to say my last game!!!...it wont be....il be in band in college...alot of work but itll be worth it...ill get to go alot of places and get some money for college...i htink i have finally for sure decided what im gonna do for the rest of my life...i still want to be a vet...but i dont want my own practice...i wanna work for a zoo or a huge wildlife ranch thingy...i cant think of the right word for it...i think you all know what im talkin about...well thats all for now i guess...i <3 you more than you will ever know!!!!!!!!!!!
douglas |
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[Oct. 5th, 2004|08:56 pm] |
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| |  lonely | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Breaking Benjamin-Breakdown | ] |
Someone save me from myself
Someone keep me from myself
someone pry my life from myself
someone please dont leave me here by myself
I don't want to die
But its all i can do
I don't want to die
Please help me survive
Someone save her from myself
Some one keep her from myself
Someone pry her life from myself
But please don't leave me by myself
I don't want to die
But its all I can do
I don't want to die
Please help me survive
just something i wrote awhile back...let me know what you guys think |
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| Never ment to be so cold... |
[Oct. 5th, 2004|06:49 pm] |
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| | depressed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Cold-Crossfade | ] |
Looking back at me I see that I never really got it right
I never stopped to think of you
I’m always wrapped up in things I cannot win
You are the antidote that gets me by
Something strong like a drug that gets me high
What I really meant to say
Is I’m sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold
Never meant to be so cold
What I really meant to say
Is I’m sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold
Never meant to be so
Cold to you, I’m sorry about all the lies
Maybe in a different light
You can see me stand on my own again cause now I can see
You are the antidote that got me by
Something strong like a drug that got me high
What I really meant to say
Is I’m sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold
Never meant to be so cold
What I really meant to say
Is I’m sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold
Never meant to be so cold
I never meant to be, so cold
I never really wanted you to see
The screwed side of me that I keep
Locked inside of me so deep it always seems to get to me
I never really wanted you to go
So many things you should have known
I guess for me there’s just no hope
I never meant to be so cold
What I really meant to say
Is I’m sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold
Never meant to be so cold
What I really meant to say
Is I’m sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold
Never meant to be so cold |
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[Oct. 5th, 2004|06:09 pm] |
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| | lonely | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Rain-Breaking Benjamin | ] |
You're a "Black Angel" which means your
an Angel of Death. You don't really care much
about people (and if you do, it's just a few) since
no one was particularly nice
to you. You're always alone unless forced to
be with other people and you love to cause
trouble. You feel depressed a lot and don't
have something that could cheer you up like
most people. You don't find joy in people but
probably something else. You love to be alone
to think and like the night because it provides
solitude. You're very secretive.(If you can't
see tje pics, go to my homepage and look near
the bottom and find your result)
What Color Angel are You? (PICTURES)
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[Oct. 4th, 2004|09:23 pm] |
You have Black Wings! Your feathers are dark, raven
black, which can also be spiny and scaly. No
one really knows why your feathers are this
dark, because you always conceal yourself with
a bubble. A great sadness surrounds you, and
you take it out on others and the world. In
Spite of your beauty, your inside is twisted
and dead, because you were hurt so badly that
youre heart couldnt take it. Before, your wings
were white, and slowly, when your life was
changing, so was the color. You have no
friends, because you cant let anyone get too
close to you. Grief fills your heart, though
anger blinds your eyes.
What Color are your wings?(Mainly for Girls)Beautiful Pix!
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[Oct. 4th, 2004|09:16 pm] |
You're so depressed... but why? Some people might
call you whiny and annoying, and you are, to
them. You still have people that are willing
to listen to you... right after they've been
dumped.
What band from the 80s are you?
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[Oct. 2nd, 2004|01:30 pm] |
You are a bronze dragon! You are the biggest of
the males, and generally you are the only one
who gets to mate with the queen. You are an
excellent leader. Your human partner is likely
to be a Wingleader or even Weyrleader, the
person in charge of the entire Weyr, and you
are the mate of the senior queen. You are
respected by the lower colors, and if you are
the Weyrleader's dragon you are always obeyed,
unless the queen contradicts you. Since queens
are relatively uncommon, you are widely
considered by humans the best dragon to be
paired with.
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| Rain |
[Oct. 2nd, 2004|01:03 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | lonely | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Breaking Benjamin-Rain | ] |
Take a photograph,
It'll be the last,
Not a dollar or a crowd could ever keep me here,
I don't have a past
I just have a chance,
Not a family or honest plea remains to say,
Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.
Is it you I want,
Or just the notion
Of a heart to wrap around so I can find my way around
Safe to say from here,
Your getting closer now,
We are never sad cause we are not allowed to be
Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.
Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.
To lie here under you,
Is all that I could ever do,
To lie here under you is all,
To lie here under you is all that i could ever do,
To lie here under you is all,
Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.
Rain rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun,
All the world is waiting for the sun,
All the world is waiting for the sun.
Cold am I
I'm beside myself
Because there's no one else
Have I grown
So blind
Only god could save you
If you knew your way to the light
So fly away
And leave it behind
Just stay awake
There's nowhere to hide
I see you
Cause you won't get out of my way
I hear you
Cause you won't quit screaming my name
I feel you
Cause you won't stop touching my skin
I need you
There coming to take you away
Frail and dry
I could lose it all
But I cannot recall
It all wrong
Don't cry
Clear away this hate
And we can start to make it alright
So fly away
And leave it behind
Return someday
With red in your eyes
I see you
Cause you won't get out of my way
I hear you
Cause you won't quit screaming my name
I feel you
Cause you won't stop touching my skin
I need you
There coming to take you away
I see you
Cause you won't get out of my way
I hear you
Cause you won't quit screaming my name
I feel you
Cause you won't stop touching my skin
I need you
There coming to take you away |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 2nd, 2004|12:59 pm] |
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| | depressed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Breaking Benjamin-Breakdown | ] |
| L | Legendary | | I | Inspirational | | O | Organic | | N | Nutty | | O | Organic | | F | Flirtatious | | J | Juicy | | U | Unforgettable | | D | Dramatic | | A | Ambitious | | H | Healthy | | 0 | | | 5 | |
Name Acronym Generator
From Go-Quiz.com |
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| Forget it |
[Sep. 28th, 2004|09:58 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | depressed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Only one-Yellowcard | ] |
It's a crime you let it happen to me
Nevermind, I'll let it happen to you
Out of mind, forget it there's nothing to lose
But my mind and all the things I wanted
Everytime I get it I throw it away
It's a sign, I get it, I wanna stay
By the time I lose it I'm not afraid
I'm alive but I can Surely fake it
How can I believe when this cloud hangs over me
You're the part of me that I don't wanna see
Forget it
There's a place I see you follow me
Just a taste of all that might come to be
I'm alone but holding breath you can breathe
To question every answer counted
Just fade away
Please let me stay
Caught in your way
Forget it
It's a crime you let it happen to me
Out of mind, I love it, easy to please
Nevermind, forget it, just memories
On a page inside a spiral notebook
Just fade away
Please let me stay
Caught in your way
I can live forever here
Forget it
How can I believe when this cloud hangs over me
You're a part of me that I don't wanna see
I can live forever here
You fought me once but not again
You let me feel your heavy hand
I will clean your fuckin mess
And leave no trace of evidence
I am losing you again
Let me out and let me in
'cause you're not alone here
Not at all
Let me belong here
Break my fall
Shelter me from this again
Dedicated to the end
Help me break my conscience in
To free us from our innocence |
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[Sep. 25th, 2004|11:27 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | crushed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Breaking Benjamin-So Cold | ] |
Crowded streets all cleared away
One by One
Hollow heroes seperate
As they run
You're so cold
Keep your hand in mine
Wise men wonder while
Starved men die
Show me how we end this alright
Show me how defenseless you really are
Satisfy an empty inside
That's alright, let's give this another try
If you find your family, don't you cry
In this land of make-believe, dead and dry
You're so cold, but you feel alive
Lay your hands on me one last time
Show me how it end this alright
Show me how defenseless you really are
satisfy an empty in inside
That's alright, let's give this another try
It's alright |
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| Please just do as i ask.... |
[Sep. 21st, 2004|08:22 pm] |
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| |  blank | ] |
| [ | music |
| | tribute | ] |
because of what has happened today and a few days back im going to ask you all a favor...right now i feel as far from any thing as i have ever been...including god himself...and right now i feel like i need to stay here...im asking you all jkust to leave me alone...dont talk to me...dont do anything...let me be...i know alot of you wont agree with this at all...but please just honor my request...i feel like i need this....i just want it to me, my school, my music, and my writing for a while...i know alot of you dont want to let me do this...but please dp it for me...i feel like i really need this...and the best thing you can do for me right know is to just to as i ask...ill try to update as much as i can...just so you can atleast know what is going on for a lil bit...thank you all....i know you will be my friends right know and let me go through with this...you guys are the best friends i could ever have, and i know youll work with me here.
thanx
douglas |
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| tropical lazer beams of love |
[Aug. 30th, 2004|09:43 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  tired | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Cream-White Room | ] |
imah actually update?????!!!! *gasp*!!!!!! i know can you believe it??? well dougs life has been going swell...school is oober easy...i wanna kill mrs dietcshe but thats nothing new...and the band sux really bad and thats nothing new either...so other than that it has been pretty awesome...i get to see all of my super awesometastic friends...and the person i love everyday!!!!! i love you so much!!!!! well other than that my life is pretty boring!!! so i guess this update is kinda pointless...but oh well...tropical lazer beams...lazer beams of love...tropical lima beans...when youre away its like a void...i try to avoid it...when youre away i set my lazers on stun...becuase i have to stun you...just to get my point through!!!...tropical lazer beams...lazer beams of love...tropical lima beans....lima beans above... |
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[Aug. 22nd, 2004|09:31 pm] |
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hey bungalo bill what did you kill...while my guitar gently weeps...happiness is a warm gun...bang bang shoot shoot...god i <3 the beatles!!! |
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| I can't face this pain here alll alone. |
[Aug. 14th, 2004|01:28 pm] |
It’s easier to run
Replacing this pain with something more
It’s so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone
Something has been taken from deep inside of me
The secret I’ve kept locked away no one can ever see
Wounds so deep they never show they never go away
Like moving pictures in my head for years and years they’ve played
(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made I would)
(If I could stand up and take the blame I would)
(If I could take all the shame to the grave I would)
(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made I would)
(If I could stand up and take the blame I would)
(I would take all my shame to the grave)
It’s easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It’s so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone
Sometimes I remember the darkness of my past
Bringing back these memories I wish I didn’t have
Sometimes I think of letting go and never looking back
And never moving forward so there’d never be a past
(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made I would)
(If I could stand up and take the blame I would)
(If I could take all the shame to the grave I would)
(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made I would)
(If I could stand up and take the blame I would)
(I would take all my shame to the grave)
Just watching in the sun
All of my helplessness inside
Pretending I don’t feel misplaced
It’s so much simpler to change
It’s easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It’s so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone
It’s easier to run
(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made)
It’s easier to go
(If I could change I would take back the pain I would)
(Retrace every wrong move that I made I would)
(If I could stand up and take the blame I would)
(I would take all my shame to the grave) |
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| Break down here... |
[Aug. 1st, 2004|03:23 pm] |
Mile marker 203
The gas gauge leanin on the edge of E
And I'll be damned if the rain ain't pourin down
Theres somethin smokin underneath the hood
Its a bangin and a clangin and it cant be good
And its another 50 miles to the nearest town
Everything I owns in the back in a heafty bag
I'm out of cigarettes and I'm down to my last drag
I'd sure hate to break down here
Nothin up ahead or in the rearview mirror
Out in the middle of nowhere knowin
I'm in trouble if these wheels stop rollin
So God help me keep me movin somehow
Dont let me start wishin I was with him now
I made it this far without cryin a single tear
And I'd sure hate to break down here
Under 50 thousand miles ago
Before the bad blood and busted radio
You said I was all you'd ever need
But love is blind and little did I know
That you were just another dead end road
Paved with pretty lies and broken dreams
Baby leavin you is easier than being gone
I dont know what I'll do if one more thing goes wrong
I'd sure hate to break down here
Nothin up ahead or in the rearview mirror
Out in the middle of nowhere knowin
I'm in trouble if these wheels stop rollin
So God help me keep me movin somehow
Dont let me start wishin I was with him now
I made it this far without cryin a single tear
And I'd sure hate to break down here oh no
I'd sure hate to break down here
Nothin up ahead or in the rearview mirror
Out in the middle of nowhere knowin
I'm in trouble if these wheels stop rollin
So God help me keep me movin somehow
Dont let me start wishin I was with him now
I made it this far without cryin a single tear
And I'd sure hate to break down
Its too late to turn around
I'd sure hate to break down here
Mile marker 215... |
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